Inner crying

grey-sky-23441281530729JXv5Grey skies, feeling empty
Pressure band around my skull
I try to smile, I almost fail
And even now inside I cry

Staring eyes, racing heart
A lump is stuck inside my throat
I realise, that it’s in size
The equal of my beating heart

Grim thoughts, about the past
Swirling round and round my head
I try to think, of future things
But there I cannot find my way

So hard, making choices
Cannot make them by myself
I tried, I failed, and still don’t see
Where I should turn to get some help

Grey skies, feeling empty
Pressure band around my skull
I try to smile, I almost fail
And even now inside I cry